I kept hearing of other people having dreams and vision about seeing Christ face to face. Some even heard God's audible voice. I never thought that I would have such grace from God to experience similar events.
On that particular Sunday morning, before I woke up, I had a weird dream. In this dream, I was travelling in a bus with some random people. After a while, I heard a trumpet sound and it was very loud. Matthew 24 31: The great trumpet will sound, and he will send out his angles to the four corners of the Earth, and they will gather his chosen people from one end of the world to the other. Everyone got off the bus suddenly to see what was going on. I saw a white and bright figure which was floating in the sky.
I tried to see the face but I was blinded by the light on that face. That was probably Jesus I saw. He was in white robes and His face was brighter than the sun. Matthew 17: 2 And He was transfigured before them; and His face shone like the sun, and His garments became as white as light. I heard a song that I have never heard before and it sounded weird, probably an angelic song. Revelation 5: 11 Then I looked, and I heard the voice of many angels around the throne and the living creatures and the elders; and the number of them was myriads of myriads, and thousands of thousands. I was very happy at that moment and was crying. I felt ecstatic as I thought the second coming of Christ had finally came. It was probably because I felt overjoyed that Christ has returned again to this world and He wants to redeem us. Philippians 3: 20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body.
At the same time, I felt very scared and was shivering. I felt scared because I saw God Himself. I know I am not worthy to face God Himself as I am a sinner and do not deserved to be in His presence. Then I saw people disappearing and some of them were left behind. This was probably the rapture. 1 Thessalonians 4: 17. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. I was shocked and scared because I did not disappear like the rest. I thought I was left out and I was doom to suffer in the upcoming Apocalypse. I suddenly realised that actually I was dreaming and I was seeing things from a third person perspective.
Then Jesus came to me and said that He is coming soon. I asked him "how soon?" but He just told me to be holy.
I woke up instantly after that. I realised that God's word spoke deeply to me. At that point in time, I was backsliding and was "sinning". I also had this wrong mindset that the return of Jesus Christ will not happen in my generation so I don't have to "prepare" for His coming. Luke 12 35-37. Be dressed ready for service and keep your lamps burning, 36 like servants waiting for their master to return from a wedding banquet, so that when he comes and knocks they can immediately open the door for him. 37 It will be good for those servants whose master finds them watching when he comes. Truly I tell you, he will dress himself to serve, will have them recline at the table and will come and wait on them.
This dream was like a wake-up call to me. After this dream, my faith in God received a huge boost. Sometimes, even though you might feel you don't deserve God's grace because you are a sinner, God still wants to connect with you and reach out to you. Psalms 103 10 He does not treat us as our sins deserve or pay us according to our iniquities.