It seemed like a normal Wednesday that day after I woke up. I thought so too but I was wrong. I dream earlier on about someone who was special to me, that I was dating her. I was unsure from God whether what I dream was from God. I am someone who thinks a lot, especially worrying about my future. I always worry a lot about my health, my studies, my career, my love life, my family's salvation, my own cell etc. During that morning, as I walked my way to the MRT station, I prayed to God, for his sovereign will to reign over in my life.
Fast forward, I boarded my company bus after reaching Jurong East MRT Station. One year ago, after my church service, there was a booth that gave out free christian books. Being the typical "kiasu" Singaporean, I decided to take quite a number of books because no one wanted it anyway and it was free. However, despite taking quite a myriad of books, I did not bother to read them at all. I decided to start reading them again and I am currently in the midst of reading a book about prayer. On that bus, I decided to read this book about prayer because I realised that there were no other other perfect and convenient timing in doing so. I wanted to read this book about prayer because I am constantly worried about the future and I wanted to learn how to pray effectively for my future.
As I was reading this chapter on how prayer brings life greatest happiness, I was also listening to music through my earpiece at the same time. I listen to all kinds of music, christian songs, secular english pop songs, chinese songs, Japanese songs, etc. My playlist was randomised and I did not pick the song I was listening to as I read the book. My phone started to play "At the cross" by Hillsong as I was reading this chapter. As I read the book, it mentioned a part in the bible where Jesus mentioned "It is finished" after He gave His life for us and died on the cross to overcome sin. John 19:30: When Jesus received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished". With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.
Just then, coincidentally or not, the bridge of the song also played this,"You tore the veil, you made a way, and you said that it is done". The chapter in the book and my song said the exact thing at that moment. As I continue reading and listening to the lyrics of the song, I started to feel the tangible physical touch of the Holy Spirit. The moment I heard the phrase, "It is done" while reading the book, I knew very well God was speaking to me and I started to tear up. I hold back my tears because I was in a public bus. Even if I did cried, no one would have probably notice as I sat at the back and there were very less people at the bus at that instance.
"It is done" This phrase/sentence have very powerful meanings. Firstly, in recent days because I kept wondering whether I might loose my salvation because in my life I kept sinning repeatedly and I felt that I failed God miserably. However, this powerful statement reaffirms my faith and what Christianity stands for, which is that Jesus gave His life for us at the cross and died to grant us salvation and. Only His grace will save us and not by our own works. The moment Jesus died on the cross, it was done. We do not have to do anything more to secure or receive our salvation. If we believe and and accept Christ as our Lord and Saviour and receive Him into our lives, we will not loose our salvation because Jesus already died on the cross and this settles everything.
Secondly, on an individual level, I felt that God was also speaking to my life circumstances directly. I felt that God was telling me directly that He holds my future in His hand. Before I was even born, He wrote my future. When God said it is done, it is really done and I should stop worrying about my future.
As I reflected on this incident, I really felt touch and awed that God use two simple ways to speak to me, a christian song and a christian book. I did not expect this to happen, God indeed moves in mysterious but powerful ways. I am still unsure if the dream I had that night might be from God since that morning I had a divine encounter with Him also. Still, I do not want to think so much about this now and I leave everything to God because He is my Lord and my Master and He writing my future is done already.
Jeremiah 29 11-13. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." As I called on God that morning and seek Him about my future, I indeed found Him, that is why I had this divine encounter with God.
God died on the cross 2000 years ago. All you have to do is to believe and accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and saviour and you will immediately receive salvation. If you are worrying about anything in your life right now, seek God with all your heart and pray to Him with a sincere heart and you shall find Him and as He hears your prayers.
Wednesday, 25 July 2018
Tuesday, 26 June 2018
🇸🇬 Once In Our Lifetime, Two Years Of Our Life
Some people would usually ask this, if you were given a choice, would you serve two years of NS (Nation Service) willingly? To be honest, if there are no repercussions in not serving NS (not being able to find a government job easily, loose citizenship, get charged etc), many people would do it, including me. Many people have different reasons of not wanting to serve, some feel that they wont be able to withstand the physical challenge, some feel that they wont fit in socially well, some just want to use this two years of their life to study or work instead and some simply find these two years is a total waste of their time. To most Singaporeans males, NS give females a 2 years head start in life because females do not need to serve NS.
However, despite all these negative general opinions, I did not find my 2 years in NS a total waste of time. In fact, I did appreciate these two year of NS as it gives me time to do my other stuffs. In school, we are tied to rigid schedules and strict timetables. Every single second is important as it could be used in studies which eventually will most likely determine whether you can attain your dream job. Even in weekends, if we had nothing to do and exams are coming, we still have to mug like crazy if we want to score results with flying colours. However in NS, during our admin time and when we bookout, we do not have to study or do projects, we can just literally slack and do nothing and enjoy every single moment of life without having to worry about anything. We can just play computer games, watch online movies and shows, go out with friends etc without having this fear of losing out to others academically in this paper chase race. We have literally nothing to worry about during our free times. These two years was a well-deserved break from the rigours of studying. I get to do many things during my free time, like reading countless books, learning guitar, watching lots of movies/tv series, catching up with old friends, reading up about my uni modules, spending more time with my family, being able to go church regularly etc.
In addition, I also learned a lot of skills and life long lessons in NS. Being exposed to people from different backgrounds had greatly opened my eyes to different situations that people are going through and also widened my perspective in life. Through interacting with different people, I get to learn different lessons from them. I admit, it was hard adapting and fitting it at first physically, mentally and socially, but after a while things got better after BMT (Basic Military Training). Life was definitely not a bed of roses in my army life, I had been through rough seasons and harsh encounters with unreasonable superiors and other people. Still, I learned a few lessons from these experiences. I learned how to be tolerant with some people and learn to respect people of higher authority and how to deal with unreasonable people. Sometimes, life is unfair. I had learned on how to accept certain unfair things and deal with it during my army life. I also learned how to trust God when I was in deep waters, because in the end He never failed me through any situations during my 2 years in NS. On the other side of the coin, the hard skills that I learned in NS was also very useful. Being a mechanic in NS impart me with technical skills that I would need to have in my future course in University (Engineering) and give me a taste how it would be like to be an Engineer.
This is personal to me due to the favourable situations, but I thank God for giving me a general stay out life and my camp which is near my house. I remembered before getting my unit posting, I kept praying to God to let me be posted to Kranji Camp forever after my vocational training which was also at Kranji Camp. Things got ugly during the posting session and somehow the clerks blundered, but whatever that happened or meant to be happened, I thank God by His grace that when I was in two different unit, my location was always at Kranji Camp. This saves a lot of my transport fees as I do not have to take the public bus or train when I book in or book out. Also, because my camp was near my house, I could wake up later than my other friends in the morning and reach home earlier too after work. Even though the work environment was quite cancerous and there were frequent OTS and several outfield, the location of the camp being near my house really made up for all of that. Having a workplace that is walk-able from my house is already such a great blessing from God. Eeven though the environment in my unit was cancerous, I learned a lot of life lessons from it and made quite good friends from it which made up for the cancer.
These two years in my life is really a unique and an enjoyable experience for me. If given a chance to serve NS out of freewill, I might not choose to serve it but I definitely do not find these two years a total waste of my time. In fact, I am thankful for this season in my life as it taught me a lot of life-long lessons and values, allowed me to take a break from studying, letting me relaxed and doing the things I wanted to do during my free time. Once in our lifetime, two years of our time. If you are about to enter NS or going through it right now, make this two years of your time enjoyable, make more friends and make full use of the time you get away from studying/work so that you would not find NS a total waste of your time.
However, despite all these negative general opinions, I did not find my 2 years in NS a total waste of time. In fact, I did appreciate these two year of NS as it gives me time to do my other stuffs. In school, we are tied to rigid schedules and strict timetables. Every single second is important as it could be used in studies which eventually will most likely determine whether you can attain your dream job. Even in weekends, if we had nothing to do and exams are coming, we still have to mug like crazy if we want to score results with flying colours. However in NS, during our admin time and when we bookout, we do not have to study or do projects, we can just literally slack and do nothing and enjoy every single moment of life without having to worry about anything. We can just play computer games, watch online movies and shows, go out with friends etc without having this fear of losing out to others academically in this paper chase race. We have literally nothing to worry about during our free times. These two years was a well-deserved break from the rigours of studying. I get to do many things during my free time, like reading countless books, learning guitar, watching lots of movies/tv series, catching up with old friends, reading up about my uni modules, spending more time with my family, being able to go church regularly etc.
In addition, I also learned a lot of skills and life long lessons in NS. Being exposed to people from different backgrounds had greatly opened my eyes to different situations that people are going through and also widened my perspective in life. Through interacting with different people, I get to learn different lessons from them. I admit, it was hard adapting and fitting it at first physically, mentally and socially, but after a while things got better after BMT (Basic Military Training). Life was definitely not a bed of roses in my army life, I had been through rough seasons and harsh encounters with unreasonable superiors and other people. Still, I learned a few lessons from these experiences. I learned how to be tolerant with some people and learn to respect people of higher authority and how to deal with unreasonable people. Sometimes, life is unfair. I had learned on how to accept certain unfair things and deal with it during my army life. I also learned how to trust God when I was in deep waters, because in the end He never failed me through any situations during my 2 years in NS. On the other side of the coin, the hard skills that I learned in NS was also very useful. Being a mechanic in NS impart me with technical skills that I would need to have in my future course in University (Engineering) and give me a taste how it would be like to be an Engineer.
This is personal to me due to the favourable situations, but I thank God for giving me a general stay out life and my camp which is near my house. I remembered before getting my unit posting, I kept praying to God to let me be posted to Kranji Camp forever after my vocational training which was also at Kranji Camp. Things got ugly during the posting session and somehow the clerks blundered, but whatever that happened or meant to be happened, I thank God by His grace that when I was in two different unit, my location was always at Kranji Camp. This saves a lot of my transport fees as I do not have to take the public bus or train when I book in or book out. Also, because my camp was near my house, I could wake up later than my other friends in the morning and reach home earlier too after work. Even though the work environment was quite cancerous and there were frequent OTS and several outfield, the location of the camp being near my house really made up for all of that. Having a workplace that is walk-able from my house is already such a great blessing from God. Eeven though the environment in my unit was cancerous, I learned a lot of life lessons from it and made quite good friends from it which made up for the cancer.
These two years in my life is really a unique and an enjoyable experience for me. If given a chance to serve NS out of freewill, I might not choose to serve it but I definitely do not find these two years a total waste of my time. In fact, I am thankful for this season in my life as it taught me a lot of life-long lessons and values, allowed me to take a break from studying, letting me relaxed and doing the things I wanted to do during my free time. Once in our lifetime, two years of our time. If you are about to enter NS or going through it right now, make this two years of your time enjoyable, make more friends and make full use of the time you get away from studying/work so that you would not find NS a total waste of your time.
Tuesday, 12 June 2018
📱 Miraculous Return Of My Lost Phone
12.06.2018.
From 11.06.2018 to 14.06.2018, I had a glimpse of what campus life would be like, I went for NUS Engin Camp18. On the second day, we had an amazing race around the campus. That day, I wore SAF (Singapore Armed Forces) admin pants, in which my pockets were small and loose. After finishing the games at the station at the science faculty, we took the NUS Campus Bus A1 from the science faculty to the computing faculty. At the games station at the computing faculty, I realised my phone was not in my pocket which I last placed my phone inside. I got scared and decided to check my entire bag for my phone. Realising my phone was not with me, my mind started to spiral away, thinking of the dreadful outcomes if I cant find my phone back. I mentally braced myself of the worst thing that might hit me, which is not finding my phone back.
If that really happened, my remaining two to three days in the Engin Camp would suck damn bad and I would regret signing up for this camp, never ever willing to go for any other camps again. My parents would be so mad at me, of how careless I was. Cancelling my phone number and getting a new phone would be very troublesome. All my precious photos and important friend contacts would also just be gone like that down the drain. It would be hard to start over again socially. I would be depressed for like about a month, no mood to go out with friends or continue working. At that moment, I knew that there no one which I could look up to except God. I started to pray in God and spoke in tongues softly. As I prayed in the spirit, I heard God is telling me in my heart that everything would be fine. I was unsure if I left my phone at science faculty, on the A1 bus or around computing faculty. Just then, I felt from the Holy Spirit that I just left my phone on the A1 bus.
Putting my trust in God, I told my OGL that I probably left my phone on the bus A1. It was also probably the easiest and nearest location to search first. We then took another bus A1 all the way to the terminal, hopeful that the bus stopped at the terminal and not in the midst in its second or third trip. Throughout the journey, I remained calm all the way. From my past experiences, God always delivered me through and out of the storm, I believed and have faith that this time round He will still deliver me. I just keep remembering of how in the past I been through worse things in my life, yet His grace always extend to me and He never fail me. Somehow, God's miracle would always manifest in my life through His grace and power even though I had failed Him countless time. When I reached the terminal, there was no one at the main office to help us. I just had this idea instantaneously to tiptoe and look at the back seat (where I previously sat) of every A1 bus to see if my phone was on it. However, I was not tall enough. My OGL decided to help me out with it and thank God, we found my phone at the back seat.
In conclusion, God was very faithful. I thank God for giving me peace in that situation and also delivering me miraculously out of that situation.
From 11.06.2018 to 14.06.2018, I had a glimpse of what campus life would be like, I went for NUS Engin Camp18. On the second day, we had an amazing race around the campus. That day, I wore SAF (Singapore Armed Forces) admin pants, in which my pockets were small and loose. After finishing the games at the station at the science faculty, we took the NUS Campus Bus A1 from the science faculty to the computing faculty. At the games station at the computing faculty, I realised my phone was not in my pocket which I last placed my phone inside. I got scared and decided to check my entire bag for my phone. Realising my phone was not with me, my mind started to spiral away, thinking of the dreadful outcomes if I cant find my phone back. I mentally braced myself of the worst thing that might hit me, which is not finding my phone back.
If that really happened, my remaining two to three days in the Engin Camp would suck damn bad and I would regret signing up for this camp, never ever willing to go for any other camps again. My parents would be so mad at me, of how careless I was. Cancelling my phone number and getting a new phone would be very troublesome. All my precious photos and important friend contacts would also just be gone like that down the drain. It would be hard to start over again socially. I would be depressed for like about a month, no mood to go out with friends or continue working. At that moment, I knew that there no one which I could look up to except God. I started to pray in God and spoke in tongues softly. As I prayed in the spirit, I heard God is telling me in my heart that everything would be fine. I was unsure if I left my phone at science faculty, on the A1 bus or around computing faculty. Just then, I felt from the Holy Spirit that I just left my phone on the A1 bus.
Putting my trust in God, I told my OGL that I probably left my phone on the bus A1. It was also probably the easiest and nearest location to search first. We then took another bus A1 all the way to the terminal, hopeful that the bus stopped at the terminal and not in the midst in its second or third trip. Throughout the journey, I remained calm all the way. From my past experiences, God always delivered me through and out of the storm, I believed and have faith that this time round He will still deliver me. I just keep remembering of how in the past I been through worse things in my life, yet His grace always extend to me and He never fail me. Somehow, God's miracle would always manifest in my life through His grace and power even though I had failed Him countless time. When I reached the terminal, there was no one at the main office to help us. I just had this idea instantaneously to tiptoe and look at the back seat (where I previously sat) of every A1 bus to see if my phone was on it. However, I was not tall enough. My OGL decided to help me out with it and thank God, we found my phone at the back seat.
In conclusion, God was very faithful. I thank God for giving me peace in that situation and also delivering me miraculously out of that situation.
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Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.